It's nice to have some quiet time to think...E and K are still sleeping. However; I feel that once K senses I am up all bets are off.
Thanksgiving was different this year. We all went to Ellen's and she wasn't doing well considering she just lost Leon. K and I tried to talk with her but I ended up helping E's aunt with the cooking and making a Whole Foods run for water (I ran out).
Dinner however was nice. E's sister and husband were down here and their girls. I fed baby Rachel and part of me thought "Do I really want another kid?" and the other part of me enjoyed it so much. Odd, yes I know. Sam and K played together so much and they both beat me up with pillows. Gotta love a seven and three year old. K and Sam were both grateful for their mommies and that was sweet.
I have so much to be grateful for. I've had a really good life thus far and yes, there have been some bad times but I've moved passed those times. I have a husband who adores me (with my attitude and all), I have a daughter who wants to be with me always (OK it's cute but she can be a bit of a Klingon), I have friends who I adore and who adore me (I really believe we all need a few good friends), I am healthy, I have a roof over my head, etc.
I need to remember that yes there are rough times but we can always get through them. I have a great support system yes. However; I can get my with the help of my HP whenever I need to. I can pray and yes over time things do get better.
My goal is to continue to try and grow this upcoming year. I know 100% that I will not be working past April 2008. I want to be there for my family and for me more. If I have to be on a strict budget so be it. You never know what can happen from moment to moment and I want to cherish all the ones I can.
OK, enough sappy from me today. I'm off to buy fruit for the magic bullets I bought yesterday after standing in a 2.5 hour line at Kohl's because yes, I'm crazy (: