Five Days...

With five days left yesterday was a different type of day. My bosses mother died and we lost our pet hamster. I have to let an eight year old know this morning that Josh is no longer with us.

My boss seemed ok though but I'm not there with her all the time. I was able to be present for her and take care of things she needed to have done and it was nice. I brought her flowers in the am before I knew she had passed to brighten her day. I'm glad too that her mother went quickly. Ruth was a spit fire of a women. She was so independent. I don't know of many women in their 80's who still drive themselves around and take charge of their life. When she had the mild heart attack the family even felt to a point she'd be ok but within six weeks everything changed. It showed me again how quickly life can be taken away. I'm not sure if I've been around so much death lately to help with the practice I am doing or if it's just life but God it seems like a lot of people are passing even if not as direct as my bosses mom who I saw often and spoke with often. I mean for Kaila's class to have two deaths in two weeks within the past three weeks with a mother and a brother of her classmates dying. How sad but how real to see how it happens. I mean again, it really makes me cherish the life that I have.

We stayed in yesterday instead of going out. I made Chicken, Sweet Potatoes, and rice, and we all watched House. I even took some time to visit with Eric's grandmother. I really like Ellen and feel bad that she seems so lonely at times. She had me try her Chicken/Veggie soup for Passover and it was great!

Yesterday was a day of sadness. Today I will have a sad little girl and I think we will all be a bit sad for Josh (yes he's just a hamster) who has been with us since kindergarten. He was a trooper. I've never seen a hamster live this long.

Finally it's off to a walk with the family, my last breakfast at Factors Deli where we ate so often, and school and I love Tuesdays because it means my dance class. This is growth as well because I've found being happy and content going outside my comfort zone. I used to only know about Tuesdays in the valley and I was afraid to try new things but now I get excited for trying new things. I know I will find what I need anywhere "I" am.

More tomorrow...

On Overload but ahhh in the end....

So it's been a crazy couple of months for me. I've had the rehearsals with K's school for Peter Pan and the fundraiser for the company I work for.

I did so much that my poor body went into overload....

I did the make-up for Peter Pan and here's some of my handy work. I did pretty well for a first timer if you ask me.. OK so not the best quality but it's from my cell phone...K was a mermaid and well, here she is with another of the mermaids in the official make-up room. I didn't really like their make-up but I tried at the dress rehearsal and this was the night of and I guess everyone struggled with the mermaids but the girls thought they looked beautiful and that was all that mattered..

So with the play over all that was left was the fundraiser. This is something I went into expecting so much more of it. I believed all fundraisers with auctions like at K's school had to be well put on. So when I found out how not together last years one was and how much fun it was I had to just sit back and let it be what it was going to be and well, it seems everyone had a great time! I even won the items from the silent auction that I wanted (: I've received numerous emails about what a great job I did which again goes to show, stop being so serious and have fun needs to be my mantra.

With the busy life I had I thought I'd take the day off yesterday. My work got me a gift Certificate to RA Organic Spa where I enjoyed a relaxing bath with fruit and flowers. During my bath I enjoyed some fresh Thai Coconut milk and after the bath it was off for a 90 minute facial where I could just relax. It was so nice to just take care of me.

Here I am after the facial / spa treatments.. I'm trying to practice not thinking negative thoughts of myself and just accepting me for who I am. This is me in the raw. At 32 and I feel not aging too bad. This practicing accepting me for me is a hard one but one I am doing it a bit by bit daily. I notice that I'm a bit shiny from the facial lol.

All in all I survived the past two months. I leave this weekend for the annual retreat I attend. I'm so excited to be getting more rest and spending some time with some women I adore and get some rest along with working a bit more on myself.