Shopping Insanity & Withdrawal...

When you go from being able to shop if you want to...to quitting your job and then your husband taking a 20% pay cut over the past year you can go through what I'd like to call "Shopping Withdrawals"

Take for example a location like the one in the photo to the left (The Americana in Glendale) they have some lovely establishments like Free People & Juicy just to name a few and well these are establishments that I used to enjoy. Now I do what I like to call "Do you love it?" minus the buying it if it's loved.

Signs of insanity from said withdrawals is spending time on websites of your favorite stores and filling your "bag" just to delete the bag at the end. Think of it as torture for a ex-shopper or trying on those Marc Jacob shoes even though you know you won't buy them and then finding out their oober cheap and still walking away but almost in tears (pathetic I know) because you knew ahead of time you weren't going to get them.

Don't get me wrong, for the most part I'm fine with the decision I made. Change is a hard thing though and I like to hang on for dear life when I'm used to something and not feeling "comfortable" with doing something new.

The lesson here and not sure if it's been learned yet is...DON'T GO TO THE WEBSITES AND STORES THAT MAKE YOU CRAZY. That's not too hard to do is it?

Not Enough Time...

There isn't enough time in the day I've realized. This isn't the time old tale of a mother feeling she doesn't have enough time in the day as she sits there eating bon bons and watching soap operas. I'm not that mother, I hate reality TV & Soaps, and I just don't get why there isn't enough time in my day to do all I need to. Between housework & taking care of the families finances etc. I feel like I'm drowning most days. I love the hours between 4:30am and 8:00am when the whole house is asleep (well at least the baby during that time) and I can get work done.

I'm going to just throw it out there that really cloning for mothers should be an option when you are delivering your precious little one because the cloned self can do so much for the over worked self. The funny part of all this is how did I do this with Miss K when I worked? Oh yeah my home was a nightmare.

In closing enjoy the photo of the boy with lots to do to keep him company and yet her prefers to sleep a bit.

Really Lady???

While out with my aunt today we walked into Nordstrom to feed the baby since they have nice women's lounges. Anywho, this lady walks up to me and asks "Why are you bottle feeding your baby?" "Really lady, did I ask your opinion?" is what I wanted to say but instead I explained how we had issues nursing when she then asked "Is that your milk in the bottle?" to which I flipped her off in my head but instead explained pumping was very painful and I wasn't producing enough milk.

Why did I let her get to me?

My Lactation Consultant said I went above and beyond trying to nurse this little guy and did way more than a lot of women would have done when having problems. Still I felt disappointed and shame not being able to nurse when I tried so hard.

Today is day 11 not giving L my milk. I was fine and doing better until said lady at Nordstrom hurt my feelings today and I wish I didn't feel I had to explain myself but I was afraid if I didn't this total and complete stranger would judge me even more.

Now people know I'm very honest but I couldn't tell her to mind her own business. I guess that is something I'll work on. Watch out next nosy lady butting into my business!